I’ve started and stopped a version of this post many times. And for weeks now, I’ve been wanting to share my thoughts with you, but haven’t been able to get over whatever was keeping me from writing in a way that didn’t frustrate me. So, I’m taking this post as an opportunity to share the not-so-glamorous side of my academic life and ease back into the newsletter thing. It has been almost three months after all…
I came to the US two months ago, and I left behind everything, my parents, my friends, my home, my furniture, my books.. I was an extroverted, happy, confident, talkative, friendly and brave woman who had lots of friends, but since I came here, I have become a shy, introverted, lonely person who struggles to even order a coffee, and I am always afraid of making a fool of myself in front of other people. I always feel vulnerable and it exhausts me...besides I envy those who talk or laugh or study with their friends, and I want to cry when I think that people sitting next to me in the bus, are able to actually go and see their parents if they want, while I am not even being able to video chat with them. I keep asking myself "does it worth it" and although my answer is always "yes" I feel defeated as if I lost everything for nothing....
reading your post couldn't alliviate my pain, but made me feel human again, that I am allowed to be this lost. it reminds me that I have come a long way to be here and I have been the bravest to face all the unbearable fears and still try my best for the future. Though I hope the day I call this place home comes soon...
thank you for writing this post! I wish you the best of luck with your new home :)
I'm grateful you could find some comfort in my story, Razi. I hope you find a sense of community soon or at least start to develop feelings of familiarity. I wish you all the luck as you navigate your new journey.
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Thanks Margaret, I needed to read this today.
Always here for you, Deena! And so proud of you :)
I came to the US two months ago, and I left behind everything, my parents, my friends, my home, my furniture, my books.. I was an extroverted, happy, confident, talkative, friendly and brave woman who had lots of friends, but since I came here, I have become a shy, introverted, lonely person who struggles to even order a coffee, and I am always afraid of making a fool of myself in front of other people. I always feel vulnerable and it exhausts me...besides I envy those who talk or laugh or study with their friends, and I want to cry when I think that people sitting next to me in the bus, are able to actually go and see their parents if they want, while I am not even being able to video chat with them. I keep asking myself "does it worth it" and although my answer is always "yes" I feel defeated as if I lost everything for nothing....
reading your post couldn't alliviate my pain, but made me feel human again, that I am allowed to be this lost. it reminds me that I have come a long way to be here and I have been the bravest to face all the unbearable fears and still try my best for the future. Though I hope the day I call this place home comes soon...
thank you for writing this post! I wish you the best of luck with your new home :)
I'm grateful you could find some comfort in my story, Razi. I hope you find a sense of community soon or at least start to develop feelings of familiarity. I wish you all the luck as you navigate your new journey.
Thanks for sharing this Margaret!!
Thank you for reading, Aris!
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